I'm So Over That

So, my last post was about all of the things that I appreciate about working full time. Yeah, I'm so over that. I quit. I couldn't do it. It is a long story, but ultimately, I realized that I am not willing to put my child in a situation, that I see as unhealthy, for the purpose of financial gain.

Here is the long story:
I began working full time in January and soon after realized that, while I was making some money, I was exhausted, my daughter was exhausted and confused about the situation, I felt guilty for abandoning her for ten hours a day, and I missed her. So, I asked if I could go to part-time. I did and the hours were good, at first. Then, I went from 30 hours per week with benefits to 20 hours with no benefits. This happens when you are the minority part timer in a full timer's world. While, the hours were nice and I was able to pick my daughter up early, I was only making enough money to pay for her to go to daycare. Not really financially desireable. So, after couple of months, I was asked to work a few more hours, but not more than 29 hours. Why? Because 29 hours is not considered full-time, which does not obligate the employer to provide benefits.....another consequence of entering the world of the part timer. So.....I got the bright idea that I would become a "teacher" at my daughter's daycare. Uh, changing the diapers of two and a half year olds was not exactly what I had in mind (another long story for another post), so, I am a Stay at Home Mom again, and very happy with it (except for all of the guilt that goes along with it).

Anyway, that is where I am. Let the struggle continue......